I've retired

Finally a substantial post after so long!
Ms Siew's returned to Cedar as a permanent staff and I haven't given her a substantial letter D8
I did write one the afternoon she came,but it makes no sense.
(I can't say that suffering from Azumanga Daioh withdrawal symptoms is a sensible thing to tell anyone.)
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I've retired.
At the age of sixteen.
From ELDDS.
OHNOES!!!!!!! *runs around like mad chicken with severed head*
But!
*suddenly dons shining red cape* I will NEVER retire from drama!
*drops to knees a la Sweeney Todd in Epiphany* NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
We started the party with us Sec 4s meeting in 4M to get our new shirts. (Yes,retiring in new shirts,smashing,just smashing.)
Our new shirts which we won't wear after the party.
Our new shirts with pretty red shields with ELDDS in Old English Five font and the Old English Five word in a banner below saying Believe.
And I believe in drama.
And the pretty gold phoenix at the back.
I expressed opposition to the phoenix,and Tereza advanced on me in an anime-ish way,saying "Why?"
(The following conversation is along the lines because I don't remember random moments very well.See first post for further evidence of my idiocy in random moments.)
Me:"Why would you ask?"
Tereza:"I'm responsible for the phoenix."
Me:"...In traditional Chinese culture,at weddings,there is always a picture of a dragon with a phoenix.The dragon represents the male,and the phoenix represents the female.And I like dragons much better."
Tereza:"...I still don't get it."
Me:"You might if you have twelve years of Chinese culture shoved down your throat."
Tereza:"WHICH I DON'T 8D"
...anyway.
We went to the canteen.
THEY ORDERED CATERING OMG WE NEVER DID THAT FOR OUR SENIORS *feels bad for a moment*
We ordered pizza and chipssssssss *has brief azumanga daioh-ish sadness for a while*
Though this year was a bit unique.They made the customary cake.
Which means that it was homemade and *Iroh pose* the secret ingredient,is love.
Which also meant that there was no cakefight this year.
*big sad moment*
*holds senior Liyana's skirt* Liyana,I have,failed,youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
You see,it has been my dream since I was in Secondary 2 to,at my own farewell,plant a huge,brown,handprint on Mr Sng's shirt.
But never mind,at least this time I could have my cake and eat it too (and it would not be used as a weapon.)(Or as a defence mechanism.).
mmmmmmmm.
Fruit punch was nice,and we had ice cream.
All I had from the catered food,even though there was mee goreng,and samosas and spring rolls and mini-pizzas,and curry puffs as well,are as follows...
3x Chocolate Eclairs filled with cream (I LOVED THIS IT WAS SO GOOD!!!!)
2x Chocolate rice donuts (We were only supposed to take one D8 but Janelle gave me hers ^^.)
1x Mini pizza (meh.)
(And now you see...I am so very influenced by L indeed. XD)

But yes.Then we moved on up to AS1.On the way I met Ms Siew and I said sorry about not sending her a letter even though I did write one,and it didn't make sense.And that today I was retiring in a new shirt. XD

The sec ones sang a song that was either composed or which they changed the lyrics to,though there were people hiding in Row Two *pokes people who were hiding in Row Two*
The sec twos danced,and who knew they were so good?Cheerleading I could understand,but that...wow.
The sec threes sang another song,which I don't know the name of.I'm for the most part 21st century music-impaired,and my music life can be narrated with Your Mummy And Daddy's music.(All you need is love.I believe in miracles,where you're from.You ain't nothing but a hound dog.Video *did* kill the radio star.And Puff the Magic Dragon is not about drugs.I wanna rock and roll all night and party everyday.We can try to understand the New York Times effect on man.Thunderbolt and lightning,very very frightening me.Billie Jean is not my lover,she's just a girl who claims that I am the one...Mamma mia,here I go again.)
But I digress.
Their song was pretty awesome too.
After that.
We got certificates and papier-howthehelldoyouspellit masks. XD
I remember two years ago they had Miss Universe type sashes and it was funny.
This time they came up with interesting names too. (Yes Liyana,I still remember you're Miss Japan.)
My certificate calls me "A Fantastic Member" (they pronounced it Fanatical.Both ways work XD) (Prisia's was "An Exciting Crazy Member")
The sec twos had their own presents for us (:
We each got a mug with little paper stars and straw hearts and stars and stuff inside,and our own letters.Mine said I was wild (WIIIIIIIIIILD!!! *does Gene Simmons impression*) but that when I was acting I was really serious. (Really.The word serious.Used on me.That's a first,a very big first at that.)
I looked at the mugs from far (our messages were rolled up and tied with twine and placed in the mugs) before getting mine,and I thought to myself,what lovely straws to go with the mugs.
oh the happiness.
And the sec ones gave us CANDEH. *omnomnom* I got three choclairs and a Fox's Blackberry,in an adorable handphone sock.

AND WE GRILLED MR SNG.
The sec threes took his chair away and demanded that he answer any question we throw at him.
Now we know how he proposed to his wife,and what he wants to name his son and daughter.(His son's coming soon.)He calls us sec fours a diverse bunch,and he thinks that the time he spends on ELDDS speaks for itself as to whether or not he loves ELDDS.

It ended without people crying.
It was such a happy thing,it was more "See ya~! ^^" than "Goodbye... T-T".
Me and Ishi and Pris stayed in the AS1 for a couple of minutes after that.I breathed AS1 air for the last time,and I smiled.
I smiled,for ELDDS was in good hands,and that I could retire in great peace.
And for the last time,I partook in the sweet taste of just being in ELDDS.
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But then...
They locked the door.With me and Prisia and Ishika inside.
And we ran to the door and rattled the knob and knocked on the door quite a few times.
(the following is along the lines)
Ishika (in a negotiatory voice):"Let us out.I'm losing patience..."
Me:"No!Don't you see,this is our last time in the year to be dramatic!"
Pris:"?!"
Me:"*bangs on door* LET US OUT!!!LET US OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1one"
*Prisia bangs on door too*
And they did.
Me:"That felt good (:"

And so that was our last day as ELDDS members.

And I didn't cry.

I'm writing postcards now for my juniors.I'm giving postcards to one Sec One,two Sec Twos,and all the Sec Threes. (I HAS ULTERIOR MOTIVE)

Why did I decide on that?Only because I knew what to say to the three lower secondary members,and that I felt it was extremely insincere to say "Hey I don't really know you,but you know what,keep contributing to ELDDS!".It sounds wrong to me.(But I hope you like yours,Nanthini.I heard you liek Sasukes,and I designed a Doctor Martens for j00.)

And as for the Sec Threes....
They're going next year.I'm going this year.I'm writing letters to them.
And I'm setting a good example. :3

Shanice (MCR was on her postcard) and Joy (an Australian radio station with the same name was on her postcard) and Isis (her camera was on her postcard) have received theirs.I haven't given Chelsia and Prabhmeet theirs,and I still need to write Rafiyat's,Poojha's,Chandini's,Joanne's,Jolene's and Michelle's postcards.
ohyes I have so much to doooo.
And I have to go shopping with Mummy on Saturday and I'm going to remove my braces today (I hear your mouth feels really empty after that.) and I have to decide once and for all what to wear for Express Yourself Day (what an oxymoron,I can't crossdress,which is basically what I do all the time,I can't go as Sweeney Todd and kill people with my handphone [Razr hahaha],my class monitress is convinced that the whole class dressing a certain way will boost our Best Class points and wants us all in pretty bright colours and no weird dressing,which means only my amaloliness is tolerated and then perhaps not...pain pain pain.Haruhi Suzumiya or Lacus Clyne,I ask?) and I need to find a way to go to either Cosfest or the Toy and Comic Convention or both because I really really really really want the new prints from Jingna sooooooo badly because I am in love with Shirotsuki and Sakuran and I want the Midnight Game 3 to name a few.

People who are on the Toycon side: Zhang Jingna (who invited me),Yi Yun,Chelsea
People who are on the Cosfest side: Ms Siew,Zhang Jingna,Tereza,Gail,a couple of 4I people.

my head is about to explodeeeeeee.

and i hope mummy doesn't object,because to quote Lacus Clyne, "What human beings have begun,other human beings can put a stop to." and to quote Ichimaru Gin, "It's easier to crush a dream than realize one, forming a bond is infinitely more difficult than breaking one. "

Speaking of Lacus Clyne,I've recently fallen in love with her despite not having watched Gundam.She speaks so well.

"Possibly... we humans can exist without fighting. but many of us have chosen to fight. For what reason? To protect something? Protect what? Ourselves? The future? If we kill people to protect ourselves and this future, then what sort of future is it, and what will we have become? There is no future for those who have died. And what of those who did the killing? Is happiness to be found in a future that is grasped with bloodstained hands? Is that the truth?"
- Lacus Clyne

But we see that the Bleach boys think differently.
"Remember this well. There are two kinds of fights. As long as we place ourselves in battle, we must always know the difference: fights to defend life... and fights to defend pride..."
- Jushiro Ukitake
"What the hell?! That's so obvious! To 'fight' and to 'protect'! "
- Shiba Kaien (dead hahahaha)
"Finished? It'll never be finished. A battle isn't like some stupid argument. As long as someone's still breathing, the fight isn't over."
- Zaraki Kenpachi
"You want the reason... for fighting? Why don't you just accept it, Ichigo? You seek out the fights. You desire the power. Isn't that right, Ichigo? Everyone who searches for power without exception searches for battle. Do you fight in order to become more powerful? Or you want more power to fight? I can't tell you that. The only thing I know for sure is guys like us were born this way! We were born to fight, Ichigo! Your instincts will keep leading you towards new battles. The only way to become stronger. It's the only way you have! If you want the power to control your enemy, take that sword in your hand and cut him down! That's your only option! Fight, Ichigo! That's the road that continues in front of you, and remains behind you!"
- Zaraki Kenpachi

And of course the 300 boys object.
"This is where we hold them! This is where we fight! This is where they die! Remember this day, men, for it will be yours for all time. "
- King Leonidas
"No retreat, no surrender. That is Spartan law. And by Spartan law, we will stand and fight...and die. A new age has begun: an age of freedom! And all will know that 300 Spartans gave their last breath to defend it!"
- King Leonidas
"The old ones say that we Spartans are descended from Hercules himself. Taught never to retreat, never to surrender. Taught that death in the battlefield in service of Sparta is the greatest glory he could achieve in his life. "
- Dilios
"'Goodbye my love'. He doesn't say it. There's no room for softness, not in Sparta. No place for weakness. Only the hard and strong may call themselves Spartans. Only the hard. Only the strong. "
- Dilios

Of course,Athrun has quotables too.
"Anyone who has ever wept because the felt weak or powerless has always had those kinds of thoughts. Oh, yes. But the moment you acquire all that power you dreamt of, you become the one who causes others to weep tears of loss. Never forget that. "
- Athrun Zala

I love this one because I feel the same way.

Anyhowso.My brains want to explodeeeeeeeee.
Byakuya doesn't help here with this extremely appropriate quote.
"I believe you told me that it was "futile" to put up resistance? That there was nothing I could do? Allow me to correct you somewhat. The situation in which you find yourself right now, that is what we call 'futile'. "

D8 I feel like Tomo.