there's no escape now

no mercy no more

in this farewell

there's no blood

there's no alibi

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i feel like i'm not in my body,

like i'm watching everything from the sidelines,

almost like a movie.

tomorrow

doesn't feel

like

it's coming

anytime soon.

i feel like i can stay in this forever.

fencing, church,

my only worries being whether i can complete whatever shishou wants me to, and whether i can complete a 180º.

i don't want this to stop.

but part of me bites at all of me

i need to move on.

but now i only feel drugged.

i could be unconscious and i don't think anyone would notice.

i could be conscious and i don't think anyone would notice.

i feel nothing, if not mildly happy.

it's...chloroform.